the past year and a half has been the most rewarding yet difficult time in my life. sure, i have had hard times in my life….different circumstances have come and gone that were not at all comfortable. however, never was i quite prepared enough to the lessons i would learn becoming a mom :) along with the cuteness, the adorable nursery, the tiny clothes…also comes the great lesson of selflessness that i continue to learn. it has been a year of up and downs, of some loneliness, of confusion and letting go of expectations. it has been a year that i am thankful for. why? because it has shaped me and molded me even though it hasn’t been the easiest. it has showed the not-so-pretty in my life and left me fighting against my own will. it has shaped me, but that is a beautiful thing.
the other day i found an article that ally had linked on her blog called “to the mother with only one child.” when i read the article (for moms with many kids as well) i was so thankful and automatically thought “hey!! thats me!” i was reminded that this is a season…. “dear mother of only one child, don’t blame yourself for thinking that your life is hard. you’re suffering now because you’re turning into a new woman, a woman who is never allowed to be alone. for what? only so that you can become strong enough to be a woman who will be left.”
so yes, this may have been a hard year for me adjusting to being a mom but it is in losing my life that i will gain it. it’s in giving my life that i will find the greatest joy.
be blessed today sweet friends!