Well I think I made a bit of a mistake. Scheduling multiple client meetings and sessions 3 weeks after having a baby was just not a good idea. It wasn’t. And there is no one to blame but myself. I have three weddings coming up in a couple of weeks and I am so excited for them! I truly am. But three weeks after having a baby comes quick, and it came quicker than I could have imagined. All of this to say, that I think I learned my lesson. Or…. am learning my lesson. I see that I have a problem with telling people no and a bit of a struggle with people pleasing. If only I could say yes to everyone and not be stressed- yes that would be wonderful! But that is just not reality. This week, I have yelled more at Leland than I ever have (if you know me in real life, you know I don’t talk that much, let alone raise my voice.) I am trying to get adjusted to two little ones, emails, client meetings, sessions, and throw into the mix we are trying to sell our house. Which also means house showings (we had six showings the week we brought Beau home- phew!!) which in turn means extra cleaning ;)
So I am saying all of this not to complain, definitely not. But I am realizing that pleasing people and being passive (especially when it comes to scheduling), in the long run, is much harder than just saying no. I have gone back and canceled sessions for this month, but it would have been much easier to have just said no in the beginning. I have’t been on the internet or social media much lately but when I opened up Facebook today I saw someone’s status that said this:
“Your fear of displeasing people puts you in bondage to them, and they become your primary focus. When you realize this has happened, whisper my Name, this tiny act of trust brings Me to the forefront of your consciousness, where I belong. As you bask in the blessing of My nearness, My life can flow through you to others. This is abundant life!” – Jesus Calling
“The fear of man brings a snare, but whoever leans on, trusts in, and puts his confidence in the Lord is safe and set on high.” Proverbs 29:25
My eyes need to get back on Christ, and what His purpose for me is in this moment. I need to learn to say no, even if it means turning away some great opportunities. The Lord knows my heart, and right now…my two boys mean more to me than an extra session or opportunity.