I have never really been one to fit in. High school wasn’t my thing and I couldn’t wait to graduate, so I graduated a year early by taking online courses. As most of my peers were graduating high school, at 17 I was packing up my bags and headed to Texas. When most of my peers were enrolling in their first or second year of college, I was getting married. And by the time people were in the middle of taking finals and internships, I was having a baby. Now a couple years later, I have two little ones. This is not to say that “I am better” or “more ahead” or any of those things. I just simply was always in somewhat of a different stage of life and it made it harder to fit in. Maybe this isn’t the case for everyone, but for shy and introverted me, it was.
And now that I am in my very early twenties with two little ones, I can say that the “fitting in” thing hasn’t gotten much easier. I see others with little ones but many are older than I am. This may sound silly, but in some ways I feel a little inferior to these moms who are older than me. Unknowledgeable maybe? Not really sure. I will say this not fitting in thing has always led me back to Jesus. There have been times, in these different seasons, where all I really had to cling on to was Jesus. He kept me looking to Him. Being in some seasons that may not seem the norm, is totally ok- because as Christians, we may not always look like normal we see around us. So I’ve learned to take a deep breath, rest in Christ, and be incredibly thankful for where I am. I would say that being married and having kids so young has its ups and downs….but many, many more ups.
I’m encouraged every day to keep looking to Christ, and not around at others or what others may think. God has seasons appointed for everyone at different times. Some may come sooner or later than others. It doesn’t make us any more or less than. Our worth is ultimately found in Christ. Not in what season of life we may be in- our age- or whether we actually fit in with the norm :)