This morning I woke up feeling so defeated, so I started to pray and the tears just started flowing. The past couple years, there have been really low valleys in my life, and also some really beautiful times. And I’m grateful for both of them. My heart has hurt, but it has also loved immensely.
“We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves. We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed.” 2 Corinthians 4:7-9
I have felt pressed on every side, but my faith has been strengthened greatly. Even through the ups and downs, the crap, and disappointment- I know the Lord has been there. I’ve seen His faithfulness. I feel like I’ve always had kind of a strong faith, but after having kids- you get busy, you know? You pray when you can…but still, it’s just a totally different season. The last couple years brought me back to a place where I really have had to say “Jesus, where are you?” It has made me press in- and press on, and I’m thankful for that. Jay and I are so ready for a new season in our lives and I see it coming. Freedom. I’m eager for what God has in store. We have prayed for a light to shine through when we couldn’t see the road ahead and I’m grateful for answered prayers. I finally see the light starting to shining through… (to be continued..)