(note: i don’t normally wear boots and sit in a doorway when i read, haha…i usually just have sweats on and my hair in a bun. just to let y’all know. anywhoo…) i wish i could sit down and write some nice deep, meaningful post but i can’t think of much to say at the moment. this season of life i am in is so different. i feel as though i am “on the go” a whole lot. either with the little one, with meetings, church events….whatever it may be. my mom told me the other day that it seems like i’m a whole lot more social than i was before i had leland (haha) which really is true.
there were times in my life when i would spend hours and hours alone in my room: writing, reading, listening to worship music, playing the guitar, and just being still. i would write and write and write. there were many nights when i had been asked to do something with friends and i said no, only to spend a few more hours with my journal. (like here for example.) those days are long gone, as precious as they were. i can no longer be alone for more than a half hour (or 20 minutes) at a time. it is still important that i get away and “be still” but i will be honest, those times are so rare to me nowadays.
and so now i sit here, in a totally different season of life and reflect on those simple days and long times i had alone with Jesus. now that i’m a lot busier, i’m using so much of what i learned during those times and living them out now. there were times when i was waiting and waiting but not quite sure what for, and now i see that i am no longer really waiting but living in the moment where He has placed me now. i cannot, however, forget to “be still” in the midst of my busy-ness. remember the story of martha and mary? mary spent time sitting at Jesus’ feet while mary ran around doing all sorts of things. i love what He said to martha: “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
this song spoke to me this week a lot about being still… i want Your presence. i love it.
i hope you are enjoying your sunday…it’s a beautiful one here!