My dream is not photography, it’s not fame nor fortune. My dream is not to make it to the top or be applauded for my accomplishments. Although it is easy to fall into thinking that’s the better way…it’s not my goal, and it shouldn’t be my aim. Don’t get me wrong, I love photography and will continue pursuing it. However, after being a child of God- glorifying Him with my life- and being a good wife (yea, yea….proverbs 31), my next dream and aim is to be the best mom I can be for my little boy.
“But!”…you say. “…It doesn’t make good money..” “It is not seen as ‘important’ in the eyes of man as many other jobs.” And my response? The Lord sees not as man sees. My photography, my small business, my nightly sessions of working and editing and emailing…all of that will fade away. It means very, very little in the eyes of God. But the way I train Leland…the way I give him my full attention during the day and show him Jesus….now that will last. That will last for generations to come. So today, I am not fixating on my dream of becoming someone but on becoming what God has called me to be. For now, that is to love my husband and child and put most of my energy into that. I believe the Lord will reward that. So if emails don’t get sent today and pictures don’t get edited….it will all be okay. Because it meant I spent that time with my son, who is more important than any email or photo. Today, I lay my dreams in God’s hands, trust Him, and press on toward the goal.