i’m so excited to be featured in the spring 2012 issue of artful blogging magazine. i feel blessed and am super thankful to be a part of this beautiful magazine! the article i wrote is on inspiration and finding your voice in blogging. it also includes some of my photos! you can pick up a copy at your local barnes and noble or other bookstore. you can also order it online here. just had to share the news with y’all!! :)
tonight i was sitting alone (which is rare these days) listening to some worship music and just felt so at peace. a peace that i haven’t felt at all in a long time. there were no distractions, no noises, no racing thoughts and no to do lists. just me and Jesus. finding rest.
lately i have taken a break from looking at any photography blogs, at pinterest, at a lot of the things on facebook and let me just say…what a refreshing thing it has been. i’m still working on not checking iphone as much but that is such a hard habit for me to break (just ask jay!!) technology and pretty pictures are everywhere, friends. everywhere. i don’t think there has ever been a time in history where a generation has been so bombarded with images and technology and social networks and blogs and this and that. at one point, i got so distracted by all of the images and comparing that i just needed to take a break. i just needed to rest.
and so i did. i asked for Jesus to give me peace and to be a light, as little or big as it may be. i asked that i would just be still, not do anything but simply rest in His peace. friends, we are called to go against the grain. we are called to be an example of His love. we are called to rest in Him so that He can fill us up….then we can go out and be poured out, then He can fill us once again. to put away the distractions, the do-to lists, the excuses…and spend time in His presence.
“you are the salt of the earth. but if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? it is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.” matthew 5:13
i sympathize with you if you are burnt out, discouraged, tired of comparing or too busy to even think straight. i was so there! i pray that God will give you peace as you get alone with Him. without any distractions. you will be filled up so that you can be a light wherever you are, in whatever situation you are in. you will find rest.
“you’ll find His peace
and know you’re not alone anymore
He is near….”
“bare branches of each tree
on this chilly january morn
look so cold so forlorn.
gray skies dip ever so low
left from yesterday’s dusting of snow.
yet in the heart of each tree
waiting for each who wait to see
new life as warm sun and breeze will blow,
like magic, unlock springs sap to flow,
buds, new leaves, then blooms will grow…”
the past year and a half has been the most rewarding yet difficult time in my life. sure, i have had hard times in my life….different circumstances have come and gone that were not at all comfortable. however, never was i quite prepared enough to the lessons i would learn becoming a mom :) along with the cuteness, the adorable nursery, the tiny clothes…also comes the great lesson of selflessness that i continue to learn. it has been a year of up and downs, of some loneliness, of confusion and letting go of expectations. it has been a year that i am thankful for. why? because it has shaped me and molded me even though it hasn’t been the easiest. it has showed the not-so-pretty in my life and left me fighting against my own will. it has shaped me, but that is a beautiful thing.
the other day i found an article that ally had linked on her blog called “to the mother with only one child.” when i read the article (for moms with many kids as well) i was so thankful and automatically thought “hey!! thats me!” i was reminded that this is a season…. “dear mother of only one child, don’t blame yourself for thinking that your life is hard. you’re suffering now because you’re turning into a new woman, a woman who is never allowed to be alone. for what? only so that you can become strong enough to be a woman who will be left.”
so yes, this may have been a hard year for me adjusting to being a mom but it is in losing my life that i will gain it. it’s in giving my life that i will find the greatest joy.
i don’t usually post too much of my wedding and professional photography on this blog but i had to share some images from a recent wedding. since jay has known ben for quite some time and i met jordan when we were in elementary school, it was so great to take their engagement session and their wedding even more so. it was such a blessing being able to be a part of their day and see two people who love Jesus above all come together in marriage…what an awesome and beautiful thing!! to see more images from their wedding on my website click here.
the last couple of months, leland has been into every kind of musical instrument in our house. he loves playing on our piano and on his little piano we bought him for christmas. he is always walking up to our guitar and strums it…not to mention the little drum and his fisher price record player that he LOVES. whenever we have our record player on he constantly goes up to it and says “whats that” and wants us to show him the spinning record. music is and always was a part of my life growing up. we always had music playing…always! in practically every room of our house, there was music. i loved that and definitely want the same in our home. and i’m sure leland doesn’t mind….because i think we may just have a little music prodigy on our hands….hehe :)