not sure if you’ve heard of pinterest but it’s a website where you “pin” different things that you like. clothes, house decor, photography, and more. at first, i liked it. i thought it was a clever idea and it was almost addicting to keep looking at all of these perfect and pretty pictures all for “inspiration.” the more i thought about it, i wondered if i was wasting some of my time and if it was just another thing to follow. i know that the internet takes some of my time away from my family already, and i really didn’t need something else grabbing my attention.
i also wonder about those who are looking at all of the beautiful pictures on pinterest and blogs hoping that their future includes that perfect house, perfect furniture, and great clothes. most of those pictures are not really realistic and leave out a lot of the messes that are in our daily lives. it sets up for some unrealistic expectations that i may never attain and leaves me sitting there looking at things that i wish i had.
pinterest, blogs, and other similar websites are not necessarily bad…i’m just sitting here writin’ down my thoughts. a while ago, i decided not to look at any fashion magazines because i didn’t want the pressure to look a certain way. i also didn’t want to become discontent with what i had. people might say pinterest or fashion blogs are like magazines but really, a magazine comes out maybe once a month. you have the same magazine lying around for a good thirty days. but now, i feel like there are images and pictures everywhere at anytime- a constant media feed. just like how i can control my own thoughts, i can also take control of what i am bringing into my life. i can take control of who i follow on twitter, on facebook, and what few blogs i read. envy, covetousness, and discontentment can easily take hold when we are constantly comparing our lives to others’. so i’m saying goodbye to pinterest, to comparing, and instead i’m simplifying my life and holding fast to Christ. He is my greatest treasure, inspiration…and interest.
this weekend we drove down to the foothills of the smokey mountains with jay’s mom for his family reunion. i had never been to a reunion before so we packed our things and headed to the little town where his grandfather had grown up. let me just say, it was beautiful! we hiked up to some gorgeous views, spent some time at a memorial day parade, and did some antique shopping. i was even able to find some time to read a book during the trip. being surrounded with mountains and God’s creation was such a peaceful way to spend the weekend…
how was your weekend? did you spend some time with family? i hope you are having a safe and blessed memorial day!
today i’m going to rest in His peace. listen to some good music, spend some time with my little one, and thank the Lord for this beautiful day. “the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.” numbers 6:25-26 ….set aside any distractions, focus your eyes on Jesus, and may His peace rest in your heart today.
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i’m still amazed and in awe that i have this precious gift. i am shaping and teaching a tiny life that will grow up and have his own little personality one day. my prayer is that he will be raised to see that his parents love Jesus. i want to lead by example. i want to treasure each and every day that i get to spend with my little guy, and i’m thankful for the lessons the Lord is teaching me through being a mom…
since leland has been born, i’ve learned to be extremely flexible with time. if i need to run an errand and don’t have the time after he drinks his bottle, then that is ok. i can’t just pack up and run out the door like i used to which is a lesson of patience. for someone who is super independent (like me) and like to be on-the-go….definitely, a lesson of patience.
…i will say though, that is not easy. at least not for us. it has it’s challenges. we went from two incomes- two salaries, to one. and let me clarify a little….neither jay nor i have college degrees. it’s not like jay has some amazing three number salary job that gives us this privilege for me to stay home with leland. i could be working, oh yes, and have some money to live way above our means. you know, get a nice car, go shopping more often, get some fancy furniture, have some saving money…but i don’t think i’m doing that anytime soon. i’ve learned to be content. let me say it again: i’m learning to be content. :) to fix my eyes on the eternal. it’s not always easy. for years, i was able to use my money for shopping and things i didn’t really need but now i don’t really have that opportunity. funny thing is, a lot of that stuff i don’t need any way. and so, it is worth it. i know everyone has their own circumstances and i have a lot of respect for working moms. for us, living simpler, doing photography from home and staying with leland is worth it.
before i had leland i thought to myself “i will never be one of those mom’s whose house has toys every where. toys all over the floor and bouncy seats stacked up in the baby’s room.” to me, maybe i thought i was better than to have toys everywhere. (sad, huh?) welp, guess what? in our house there are toys and leland’s things everywhere. i also thought i could get all of leland’s toys and clothes to be all vintagy and modern but i quickly found that too, was an unrealistic expectation. this “i never will….” mentality was really just my stinkin’ pride. my image- my son’s image…it was all a form of pride. i’m also learning to let this go and live life a little.
five years ago, i never imagined i’d be a mom at this age…it is amazing how His plans are not always our plans and yet how beautiful they turn out to be when we trust Him. i’m so thankful for this little guy- what a blessing he is! (psalm 127:3)
my lovely mom watched the little guy last night so jay and i could go out for a while. what a blessing! we spent some time at a park, got some frozen yogurt, and then went to hang out with a bunch of friends. we had a great time and it reminded me of times before we were married and dating. now, times like those are so much sweeter. anywho, i think summer is just about here. driving down our country roads with the windows down, listing to some country music, and thanking the Lord for beautiful days like these…
how was your weekend? did you do anything exciting or interesting? i hope you are having a blessed sunday! i’ve have been quiet around here lately but have so much i want to post. tomorrow, there’s an awesome giveaway i’m so excited to share with y’all!
this is how we spent our friday night…lots and lots of gardening and planting. so far we have planted sweet corn, peppers, green beans, watermelon, strawberries, flower and wildflowers, tomatoes, and broccoli. we still have some cucumbers to plant! we’ll see how everything turns out…definitely excited to see it all grow. and hopefully we’ll have some fresh fruits and vegetables this summer!